i wonder if maaya ever was in this forum reading stuff... i doubt it.
i just finished reading all the 12 sites here. damn i have so many things i want to reply to o.O
yuki-chan i have trouble with your signature because i miss someone that i wasnt together with lol. dili is reading books to find out how "to act" to get to the goal. thats just evil. its like having a competition with the one you want and you try to find out who wins. many ppl try to give advice in how to act to reach your goal. ppl did that to me too and even if i thought "they are right" for a second i realized it was only right for THEIR path they are walking but not for mine. im very stubborn and stay loyal to me.
lol i imagine jigen back in his "old days" (because now he is a saintly priest of course
) in a club walking from girl A to girl B to girl C spamming the sentence "CMON dont fight the feeling" hehe.
try and error system... thats not what im longing for. in 27 years i never started to hit on a girl but not because im shy more like i dont stand for artificial encounters (okay there is 1 woman i would start it but only 1). i dont like this kind of game. the natural, unplanned encounters own. beeing this kind of way i still didnt had problems getting together with girls when i was a teenager. i had a few gfs in my youth but i wouldnt call any of them a relationship it just was too childish. they just started talking to me because they though i was cute... childish. so i couldnt really feel anything for them. not even in the perverted way lol. i would never do a 1night-stand (okay there is 1 woman i would do it with hahaha
)
nowadays i built a huge wall of steel around me no one can break through. left parenthesis - right parenthesis.
i would also never try to do stuff with a girl who got a bf... sick world we live in. where is the pride?
when its about rejection no one likes to be rejected in every way of life. but thats not the reason i never playd the guy whos trying to impress a girl. for me a girl is just not replacable like a tire thats all. if you dont know her and then try something i understand that you dont care for her. i was ONCE trying to hit on a girl AS A JOKE and it worked lol. i was just making fun. yea its easy to do that if you think about it but the real thing? i will find out one day.
it doesnt really matter at which time you will have sex for the first time. i saw some buddies getting together with some odd, desperate girls they didnt love or getting into the bagnio only to be able to say "i had sex". thats so low-class. peer pressure? i was always against the stream so no one could influence me. some kids think they are adults by havin sex.
in fact i only had sex with 1 woman so far. i only had 1 real relationship so far. i had a distance-relationship as well but that just wasnt real. maybe for some ppl it works but for me it was the extremest failure xD. met her in holiday and we didnt even spent much time together there at all. after holiday was over and everyone went back home i received a letter from her after some weeks. we became pen-pals for 4 years lol! it started with 1 page in the first letter and it ended with 10-12 pages in the later letters.
but still both of us lived our lifes seperated in our citys. maybe she thought of me as her prince on a horse hahaha... so childish. im not a prince and never want to be. when we met again after 4 years it was like a meeting of strangers. everything changed. the kids from back in the days didnt exist anymore.
as a child my world used to be a movie where 1 adventure was chasin the other. wishes came true when shooting stars twitched past the sky at night. where are these eyes now i used to watch with.
jigen you say "what you think is what you are" ? okay i think im a millionaire... damn im not?! but i thought i was! such conceit knows no bounds hehe
and when is about perv girls. i like em when they are perverted towards me but not if they were like that for 20 other men before and after me. (okay theres 1 woman i would still like even if she had 20men alrdy hahahahaha)
itada if your girlfriend gets angry at you just because you talk to other girls its not your fault but hers. i had a gf too who was even jealous at the women in the tv lmao? like when i was watching tv in the late evening and then some commercials (you know which kind of commercials i mean) came and i didnt initially turned my hands in front of my eyes she looked at me like she wants to stab me. like i decided to play such spots at night. i dont respect women who make this kind of advertisement anyway no matter how they look like. i would never pay for love... physically or psychically. its all just scam. but she didnt believed me i guess... maybe because she had no self-confidence.
this is so sick i will probably hold the guiness world record for the longest reply ever now. why am i even doin this you may ask yourself? there is just 1 reason im doin this.
