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For my background, I guess I'm some of the few with long time experience in this and that. Kinda today I'm not sure weather what to think of or what to do exactly.

In life we have objectives, thus we seek for it.. But what if that seek of purpose of life ceased? we may turn ourself into living zombies of the capitalist era.

The creator is known to know everything and sees things from a higher view. It's said that the creator only wanted us to love Him and what we're suppose to carry (in terms of like a friend / nakama) is bringing along the holy books.

Is it because, each mankind will meet up a point where he/she will find /abandoned some of their friends, and never meet again? knowing such sadness of departing from one another.. like death, or unavoidable things like fights / family deportation

Love is really a powerful thing. I think it's meant for only to be with the creator once more. Cast of everything, and enter His garden of eternity, under His protection.


I know maaya also thinks of this everyday. Well obviously, that someone did wrote it too everywhere for others to read XD

Just a matter of discovering the unavoidable.

ive just going to make a topic bout this. only a little bit different... i think a lot bout human and life,,, coz ive little thing to do when im alone. sometime i make up stories about love, friendship and life but i never expose a thing *since those stories are sucks and standard*... but i still like doing so,,,

anyway i appreciate u for being our like this kinda conversations,,, my next post would be longer.. as usual ur post took time to understand, immuran-san,, ^^)

one thing is true. relations among human are something could be called very complicated... but if we carry life with thinking bout each other than this life of ours could really went without any regretness,,

then you shall be the first to get my *nakama badge XD

Dont be amazed, but most of the people who knew me also had troubles understanding what I have to say to them. I simple kept it like that because it's easier for me to translate songs or mindreading other people. It may sound crazy, but I did many experiments with it, and yeah it's getting accurate than how I wish for it to be. More less the concept was to look in while you are out, but at the same time having your body inside that instance while your mind outside of that instance and keeping a good distance so that you wouldnt lose sight of your body.

I can teach you how to be a good predictor. Try for once in a corner of a street, predict which way will the ongoing car will go. The more you get correct answer, the closer you'll be to be a good predictor. So far I entered the social level predictor. Still more to learn from that, but seriously it's full of logic into it rahter than assumptions. Yup that's right, calculations. Probably you watched Death note rite? see how Kira predicts stuffs, non of them are too irrelogical. Most of them are within predictions.

Btw, kirei san, do you have a girlfriend / soul patner yet? Hm I'm guessing you're a guy atm.

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*nakama badge - given to people whom wants to understand complex/twisted creatures like myself XD

what's "atm" mean??

well im not a guy who really think rasionally to all things that ive found,, i mean being too complicated is also a little bit troublesome,, but it's not wrong to think and to imagine,, and since im often alone,, all i do is thinking about other person,, remembering tiny things that other person has given to me.. i dun wanna miss those little memories. Sometime i think i should enter animation school,, or mybe that's coz im too much watching doramas and stuffs,, :lol:

well my point is,, since we only have one life,, we must treasure it every single minute we have. coz we dun know when we would enter our last episode of our life.. then when we think it that way there's no use of regretting whatever condition we're experiencing.. Yeah myb sometimes we could feel a little bit feeling of bored or frustation.. but that's what's life is.. just never regret ur life, coz living itself is something that is waay too wonderful for us to have. I see ur a moslem too immurann, so u must know what i mean. well every religion has it.. but im not really a religious person also. :evil:

like u said i too have been thinking about episodes and stages of life,, when there's time that we have a lot of people to talk too.. like im doing with maayas comunity here.. and probably someday there's time that we have to be parted, I mean times when we didn't even remember people that we use to know and also for the opposite.. *and i hate when that happens* Probably some several years from now i wouldn't be here anymore... or myb other member wouldn't. Well time passes by,, it's not that i wan't that to happen. To tell u the truth i really like being here with people who cares the same person *which is maaya herself* ,, and also has the same hobbies, and talks a lot of things. I really wanna meet u in reality, attending maaya's concerts together.. being amazed together when seeing her lives.. That's why i really envy those of u who has ever seen maaya's concert together XD

Anyway there's none of us who could predict the future. Mybe even i can change,, mybe several years from now i wouldn't even care about maaya, *which i have never able to imagine before*,,, then i wouldn't be here anymore. Im not thinking about all the posibilities of the future. just becoz i know there are things like those can happens i could change my way of seeing things..

ahh... i know i haven't been able to grab all the precious things that life offers, but i certainly searching for it.. and im not going to give up..

and immuran i appreciate that badge u gave to me. ill take good care of it... *and u know what,, im one piece maniac too,,,*

I have one friend who's really my soul mate,, which is also a guy :lol: Some just thinking themselves,, but i didn't care bout that. As long as they're still around i still feel happy despite what they think of me. And i still have all of u too. .. Some years ago i have a girl that was quite close to me,, not as a girlfriend, but i lose contact with her.. and im really hoping i could see her once more And i still waiting *and searching* a partner to spent my family life with.. i mean my future wife.. ><

hitting on girls is a very easy thing to do.. (ohohoho) XD

but you need to set the quality on which you choose from, especially if she accepts your standards of life, and how much you can spend on her and that. Love needs are simple for us, maybe simple kisses and hugs would do enough for her. I had more experience than that, but not sex before. Respect her on that, she wants hand in marriage first, keke XD

If you read ero-manga rite, try to tune the extremes down to 10% and then apply to real life, trust me it works XD

(I'll continue writing later..)

ive been with a couple of girls till now,, 3 actually, 1 rejected. but nothing happened particularly,, just holding arms perhaps.. and except for the first one none of them that would really me feel really nervous every time i meet the person.. i ve just realized lately that it's my fault to lose my first lady,, since the girls after her are just a way to forget her... and it seems to not working.. :roll:

that's why in my word im still finding my partner doesn't mean im not seeing anyone..

[quote="Imurann"]
If you read ero-manga rite, try to tune the extremes down to 10% and then apply to real life, trust me it works[/quote]

do u mean love hina, i's and ichigo??!! XD

Um....I think he means a bit stronger than that. And I agree, turn it down to 10% of what happens and it works (ex-boyfriend = otaku) but it's a bit racy to talk about here *hides*

XD dillpops kawaii

sorry I cant focus on what to write now, being hit by heavy rain just a while ago, *remembers hashiru PV while saying to myself "running off like her again.. isnt it"* right, otaku. Well loving a otaku probably takes up a whole lot of understanding because we tend to be a bit more onto the open world of japanese animation, and including it's bizzare doujinshi / manga with a "R" rated themes labeled on them XD

probably even for me, upon looking at someone whom actually catches my eye, I have a keen sight for girls with nice looking eyes while wearing glasses, slim body like that.. but sometimes nothing happens, just like losing that opportunity to even know her. most of the time, we tend to look at our own weakness like not having enough money to spend, or not having the right words on the right time, scared to not being able to support either love matters or friendship. Doubts, always filled an otaku's heart. But good hearted otaku are usually shy, eventhough they read hardcore ero-manga, but they're really harmless. But I think, given the chance to know that person better, with that 10% limitation given under stict condition, I think otaku wise love can be found. Feelings are more likely the most traded one during love moments, not sharing fantism on anime/such.

my personal love story now is in a distance, she usually comes to me once a week, but sometimes once in 3 weeks. Usually the longer we wait, the more we suffer from sadness and night cries. She also liked Maaya songs, but feels jelous because I said to her that I loved maaya a little bit more XD - that's otaku for you, lol.
usually I check her LastFm and see most of the song she listens is the karaoke version from maaya, lol.

ok, off to rest. cramping legs.. ><


offtopic~

hm.. this song "Tsuki to Hashiri nagara" sounds nice to listen to after I got rained while running to the train station. Just got back home to continue what I was writing this morning. I was feeling sober today, possibly moodless after watching Tagen Hensoukyoku the night before. Namida did come down again.. especially towards the ending part, before TTR started.


Question: hm, do Maaya has an email address, where when we send her an email, she will reply it somehow?